Guys, I promise I am happy and exciting and bubbly as ever, but I went to bed at 5 in the morning last night, I am exhausted. I'll maybe update with a happier journal later! <3

Beat.

I joined DA in 2004. It's been 4 years. I used to come on here and not know anyone. I met the greatest person alive here. Back when she was The Dark Fairy and I started calling her Fae. Back when Kairi was out to kill me and Vincent was just a doodle on lined paper. I remember my first friends. Through DA I joined my first RP group, Vanilla Obsession. I wish I could go back and surprise everyone with my better RP skills, haha. No one would remember the VO veterans, especially not old Amou-kun. Ishikawa-kun, Kusakabe-kun, Ryuichi-kun, it was a birth of new male characters for me.

Because I brought Vincent to life, then branched more characters to give my Vincent a soul. Akina, Alphonse, Theo, Ilaria. Then Kairi soon became a myth, she was just having too many babies. Yoru-kun, Erica-chan, and Ilaria was the baby-sitter. Remember when Vincent was in politics? Always in a sharp suit to bring home the bacon.

Then came precious Defect who inspired my own Reject. We've come a long way in these three paragraphs.

And finally, I went to Japan. The manifestation of all my dreams and aspirations coming to life. I left you guys but never forgot you, or stopped thinking about you.

I'm so tired right now.

Beat.

Now, I came back, and DA has changed over the past 4 years. As an old fashioned deviant, I'm not sure what to think. I love that DA is flourishing, I just wish I had the time to figure out all the new changes. But I do want to use this sentence to congradulate DA on how far it's come, really, good job.

DA has become so popular, I feel I've lost my privacy in a way. Now my friends at school know about DA and we share each other's accounts and view each other. And you know, I personally love being able to see the people who leave me the comments. I wish I could express how much it means to me to have you guys visiting my page and leaving your love. I'm sorry I'm terrible with comments, for what it's worth, this journal is for all you guys who keep checking back and pestering me wondering when I'll be posting another journal. This one goes out to you lovelies.

I want to shout out to the new members of my DA family:


For all the passer byers, go check them out.
featured me in a something. ;o; She is absolutely lovely and I love her and today she wore her hair in a bun and it looks like a door knob and I asked her if everyone gets a turn but maybe I'll become posessive and not LET anyone turn it. ):< So there.

Beat.

At the same time, I do feel as though to some extent my privacy is gone. Where I could run to DA and vent a load onto the journals, now I'm worried what names I use, what I say. I just don't want you guys to worry about me, that's all. You know me, I'm always happy! But I do always vent a load to DA, so now I'll have to get a livejournal or xanga or something, haha. Those aren't popular right? Haha.

Also, I want to shout out to who has stuck with me for the longest time. And who is the awesomest person in the world ever. Ever.

Jeez this journal updating thing is quite liberating. Don't get your hopes up, I still avoid the message centre like the plague. Haha.

I love you guys! I hope I can be as good to you guys as you've been to me. <3

Mata, ne!

Siege